|All I want for Christmas is you.|
It's been almost a month now and I still haven't entirely gotten used to the boyfriend being so far away. Actually, I think I'm being affected even more by the distance. And the strange thing is, that's not usually the way I cope when away from loved ones. My usual tendency is to keep myself busy, but lately I still find myself wondering what he's up to all the time even when I try to keep myself preoccupied. There have definitely been a lot of firsts for me in this relationship, and I've constantly been struggling with myself whether or not I've been demanding too much of his time. I don't think I've ever missed anyone as much before. I just hope I don't overdo it, because I don't want him to think that I'm being too needy (though I probably kinda am right now).
Last night to numb the loneliness I kind of drank about half a bottle (or more) of wine. I don't think I want to do that again because I spent most of last night sleeping off a horrible headache. :P
But 'tis the season to be jolly, so I really should focus on the happy thoughts. Actually it's a good thing my siblings have been inviting me left and right to join them for dinners, malling, etc. so they've been helping keeping me busy and it's provided an opportunity to bond as well.
Merry Christmas, everyone. Unfortunately it's back to work tomorrow, but at least we have another long weekend coming up - so that's definitely something to look forward to.